i really hate not being near u. i kinda wish that i could juz go home or that would post me to Edinburgh. i really really wanna be next to u. i miss u so very very much. i really wish that i wnt cry thinking about it but sometimes my eyes won't listen to me. tears will always want to run down my face. the thought of u not being here just hurts me so bad. i really wish u were here. i love u so much and i miss u.