So i've been planning..

I've been thinking... when can i ever go to Scotland? I was thinking next year, if i have the chance and the money. Maybe going up to Scotland to celebrate Christmas with my darling would be a good idea. I think its good to meet his errr.. friends & family too i guess. i really need to plan this out and tell him but i don't know how. i really wish to join him, if i could it would be at any time of the year. i really miss him and we never get the chance to spend time with each other. its really a good thing for us and i'll be back to seeing snow. We could also kill each other with it :D He said that he's dog doesn't like snow, well maybe we have to see if that's true or not. Oh gosh! thinking about makes me really wanna do it. i think i'll talk to Alex about this. I eventually have to since he spent Chinese New Year here with me, it's about time i return the favor :D

Did you know??

i'm so fucking piss off right now! if i could a curse and make it happen on that person, i will! That's the problem with family members! They like to shove shit in your face! i gotta swear that i don't raise my kids that way. i want my kids to be able to run to me for advice or help when they need me. Most of all, i'm not gonna let them anywhere near my kids. Fuck, i'm not even gonna invite them to my wedding. Maybe my aunt cz i promise i'd invite her and my mom too. the others, i'll think about it. i don't think my aunt will be a problem cz she's really nice. But as for my other aunts, like i said, i'll think about it. i've been about this a lot. the more i think about and with all the things happening around, i actually can't wait to get marry and move out. SERIOUSLY.. FUCK LIFE!!!!

He'll be coming home..

He'll be coming home this week or probably next week. OMG! i miss him to very very much. i really wish he was here so i could run up to him and be in his arms right now. i can't wait to see his face again on Skype and i can't wait to hear his voice again on the phone but most of all i really want a big hug. its what i need from him. He'll be in Turkey for probably a few days and he said he'll get me something pretty, cz well, i'm a girl. i like pretty things. i really can't wait to see his handsome face already. In other news, we'll be pushing our trip to KK to the end of October that gives me a bit of time to save up my money. i kinda wanna go celebrate Christmas with him and his family. Just to give it a shot, who knows. i might like it :) wait, i'm typing this and now i can't stop smile. People are gonna think that i'm crazy. But i don't really give a damn, i'm just excited that i get to see my darling again that's all :)

NEWS!!!

FINALLY!! Alex called me just now. i miss him so much already and im glad he's ok. As long as he's ok then, i'll be ok. its funny how i was thinking of him and he just call. He must know that i miss him. I'm really glad that he called. I miss him and i love him. He must have heard my msg and decided to check on me. Well i do have the flu and i was so fucking cold out there. Now is the best time for one of his warm hugs. If only he was here to hug me till i fall asleep. That would be sooooo warm :)

No News.. I'm Gonna Cry ;(

its been a week since i heard from Alex. i miss him so very very much. i really really miss him. i can't stand being without him. the last text i got from him was "Hey huni, iv got signal for a wile jus now cos we r jus passing Malta. Should be home within a week. im missing you mch n thinkn of u. i luv u huni *muaah*" that's all i heard from him. i know he tried to call me a few times too but couldn't get through. i really miss him. he'll be home in a week or so, i really hope i could talk to him. i've been missing him so very very much. i can't wait to see him again. i miss his touch, i miss his kisses and i miss being in his arms. i miss him so very very much. "Wherever you are right now darling, i wanna tell you that i love u so very very much and i miss you a whole bunch. You mean the world to me *muaah*"

Busy

Ugh! been really busy again! juz came back Germany and i gotta come straight in to work. Will be heading to Saudi Arabia end of this August! i hope nothing holds us back.. i like my job cz i get to travel around the place, the only bad thing about this job is our boss. shes a terrible pain in the ass!! i wonder when will she notice that she's the main problem why we're loosing people. Ever since my darling went to work, i've been missing him a whole bunch. its been a week since i heard from him and im really really starting to miss him. Where is he?? He said he was going to Turkey, but its been almost a week and i still hear no news from him. Not an email, a phone call not even a text :( i feel like crying everytime i think of him, but im trying hard to be strong and to not cry. i hope i can hold on as long as i could :(