This is where the nightmare starts..

So our boss has gone awall with the hotel thing and now a contract?! Fuck it!! There's only like 9 of us working in this company and she wants to make a contract. I'm so not gonna fucking sign that thing! i rather sign a contract with the devil then to sign this one. This isn't gonna do me any good, bonding us here isn't gonna do much good. I'm gonna be so fucking piss off! This is bullshit! Theresa is leaving next month, after that it will be me, cause there's no fucking way that i'm working at Maxtrack. Maxtrack with her around is just a total mess. I don't mind helping out every now and then but sitting there?! No way, I need to get a new job. Probably working at Pro-Deco and see what it's like there. As long as there's no fucking contract then i'm fucking fine! Or the other option is to wait till Susan leaves then i'll go with her. Cause even though that the boss is my aunt, i can't stand her. "Be Professional!!" FUCK PROFESSIONAL!! i can't stand perfectionist. I argue and get piss off and i will kill someone. I'm not as nice as all the other girls.

Fucking comparing!!

I really hate being fucking compare to other people. My boss likes comparing us to each other.. and i fucking hate it when she compares me to people like Ken. He knows nothing while i know most things. Everything is neatly lay in the file on the tray and yet she threw the bomb at my by saying that i dont know anything. She was the one that told me to put everything in the file so its easy to find but nooooo!! Instead she calls up and threw the bomb at me by saying that im just like Ken. I am nothing like Ken, he knows nothing and like wandering outside doing nothing while i sit here in the office doing all the work. Fucking hell!!! i feel like shouting at her!! AAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHH....

Lack of Updates..

Been pretty busy lately, and the lack of updates are starting. Lots of things to prepare for. The hotel, roadshow, exhibitions, my book, etc etc... its a lot. Especially the roadshow, 18-20 March and 1-3 April.. then June and July.. blahhhh!! its gonna be a busy year for us. But as long as its not too stressful then im sure its all good.

Downside to it is that, my cough is still here. i've been coughing for a month and its still here and my headaches too. I really hate them. It gives me one of the worse headaches ever!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!! stop!

Another day, another comment...

Its another day of work and its also another boring day. Sitting here in the showroom all alone again. It seems like its the only thing that happen to me. Everyday.. get up, get showerer, send brats to school, get breakfast, go to work, spend most of my time alone in the showroom or workshop, have lunch, spend more time alone in the showroom or workshop, lock up, go home. Its the same thing i do every single day, except for weekends of cz. On weekends, get up, get showered, get breakfast, work thn lock up thn home. I can predict what i do every single day. Sundays are juz plain boring since i usually stay home and do nothing or go out and do nothing..

I wish Alex was here. When he was here, we got lots of stuff to do. Walk around town with holding hands, get lunch and dinner, have sex. OMG.. Having sex with him feels sooo much different when it was with Bill. Bill is more aggressive in bed while Alex is always slow and gentle. Which is obviously more passionate and i like passionate sex. It juz has soo many emotion in one XD I really do wish he was here.

Alex sent me a text last night and i can't reply him cause i got too tired and didn't reply him, he wants to come again (YAY!!!) but the only problem is, if he comes on the 7th - 14th of April, i'll be pretty busy. Plus, i'll be travelling on the 14th - 19th so i can't spend my time with him :( *wahahhhh* I think its much better for him to come during June. So that i can take a week off and i can be with him most of the time.